The first time I fell in love

When I met you, I was sure that I had found the one they talk about. All I could think about was spending the rest of my life with you. It felt like all my past relationships had ended for a reason and I was finally getting the happy ending that I deserved. I must confess, those feelings were strong. The feelings in my past were nothing compared to the way I felt with you.

I was ready to change my whole life for you because nothing else mattered more to me. Seeing you smile made my day and I was determined to bring you happiness regardless of the cost. I remember when you did hurtful things to me and asked for my forgiveness. I would let it go so easily because I couldn’t bare to see you hurt. I put your happiness first, because your happiness was a prerequisite for mine.

I fell in love for the first time with you.
And I learned how it felt to be in love
with someone that wasn’t in love with you.

They told me time would heal the wounds you left in my heart.

But time only made it clearer that I had fallen in love with you.

I should have stopped myself the minute I knew you were no good for me. Maybe if I had gathered the strength to leave, the wounds might not have become too deep to heal. Losing you made me feel hopeless, that I would ever love any man as much as I loved you.

You fell in love for the first time
with someone that wasn’t me

I knew that day would come

But I never imaged how hard it would be

They said everything happens for a reason, but until now I just couldn’t see why something so hurtful had happened to someone like me.

You fell in love for the first time
with someone that wasn’t me

I saw you fall in love with her
and treat her worse than you treated me

You fell in love for the first time
with someone that wasn’t me        

I watched you waste her time
thinking she was with someone you would never be.

Dear first love, thank you for being such a douchebag to me. After two years of feeling like shit, now I know that it truly wasn’t me.

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